Living Life In-Between

Look at those tiny baby hairs sprouting. I can't wait to see those fabulous lashes again! Oh how mommy has missed them :)

It's been a full week since our whole family have been back home. Even as I type this, it's hard to really believe. We have had a very busy week here though, not missing a moment! It is hysterical to watch as Kayla wants to eat at all of her favorite places and do all of her favorite things all at one time. I can almost see the wheels in her head spinning at full speed sometimes.  I immediately went to Trader Joe's and stocked up on her/our favorite things. There is nothing like eating in your own kitchen. Somehow the smell of coffee doesn't bother her here at all. Probably because our windows are cracked and we have fresh air constantly flowing through the house. Cereal tastes better too. Even if it was the exact same cereal we had in Tennessee. All of a sudden, things just magically tasted better!  Yay! So we just went for it. If Kayla was asking for a certain place to go and eat, we went!  Anthony (now Monkey-Kong) is thrilled about all of this.  Kayla is trying so hard to stretch her stomach again. Her weight is pretty much stable. It went down about a pound and now fluctuates. Our theory is that it's not sticking because she has been so active! We aren't too concerned because we continue to see her try!  Today, we baked brownies together. While we were baking brownies, she was already planning her next meal. While the brownies were in the oven, I watched her devour 3/4 of a big cupcake that our good friend Mark dropped off last night! Yum!! Go Kayla Go!

Watching the kids swim next door in Cheryl's pool has been by far my favorite moment since being home. Watching not only the joy in Kayla's smile as she was able to fully submerge for the first time, but to see that she hadn't forgotten a thing was incredible. Kayla swam the length of the pool within minutes of jumping in. Go Kayla Go!

Anthony had his 5 year check up and vaccinations so he is all ready for Kindergarten! Kayla begged for a shot, but they wouldn't give her one. I am telling you, she is one crazy child! Who does that???

Anthony is luckily still one very happy and healthy boy who sees perfectly and hears perfectly. His heart is strong and his mind never stops racing. He is now subtracting, adding, counting by two's and tens. Yet he doesn't know the alphabet. So he's a numbers guy. I can't wait to watch him blossom even more this year. After his "shots" we decided to go out for some ice cream!

This is a combo of Kayla's two favorite things in life. This picture will forever make us think of our sweet girl. (she really loves meow meow to share her special blankie with him)

My car is finally in route from Memphis. I am so grateful to some wonderful friends there who made it possible for Denny and Kayla to fly home on the 6th and not be stuck there because of a car!  They wouldn't have been able to leave until yesterday if it weren't for those incredible people. 

Life at home is surreal. Minute by minute. Day by day. We are so grateful to be back and yet so afraid to get too comfortable. It's a torturous thing to live life in-between these scans. Never really knowing if life will ever be flipped on you yet again.  It's so easy to just try and say to yourself not to waste the time you are home thinking about the what-ifs and that anything can happen at any time anyway, but it doesn't help. I know that in time it will get a little easier, but for now it's just really hard. I just can't imagine life without this.

One thing I do know, we will never ever let go. We will never ever take this for granted.