Saturday, June 9, 2012

Good Bye Evil Cisplatin!

I have to say... all of those positive thoughts, vibes, prayers and candles have helped! I am not going to lie and say that Kayla has been dancing all day because for sure, she has not. But, our plan to have her try and sleep though the nausea really worked today to keep it to a minimum. I kept Skype on all day and checked in on her and with Denny very frequently. Most of the time, she was sleeping.  It was a little frustrating to see some of the nurses or Doctors come in and loudly communicate with Denny while standing over her bed. I knew exactly what she was trying to do and was afraid they were going to put an end to the sleep our beautiful warrior needed to get though this really hard day!  Luckily, she managed to get through it. 6 hours of Cisplatin hell dripped through her tiny body. Willingly, my angel laid there allowing the toxic chemicals to invade her body once again.... for her fourth and FINAL time. We just hope and pray that the Amifostine that entered first does it's job to protect her hearing from any more damage.  Kayla is a true warrior and I am so incredibly proud of her. She has done us all so proud by finding the strength to take a bat to this monsters head.

Tonight, I just wish her a peaceful nights rest as she prepares her body and mind to continue winning this fight. I am so so proud.

Thank you so much to all of you who have reached out to send us messages of strength and love since my post yesterday. We appreciate and love you all so much for being there for us and keeping us strong. It is so much easier going through this knowing we are surrounded by so many loving thoughts. No one should fight alone!

Speaking of that, Kayla and I created some new wrist bands in youth and adult sizes. They will debut at the 5K one week from today. After that, we will see how many we have left. Kayla picked out the color blue and the writing is in silver metallic (representing grey for brain cancer). It reads on one side "Kayla Rose" and "No One Fights Alone" on the back. We thank you all for joining in the fight!!! I have been doing my own training here to get fit using Kayla and everyone I know battling this horrible monster as motivation. I feel like if Kayla and these kids can do it, so can I.   After months of sitting around and waiting, I knew I needed to get moving.  Today, I was a sweaty mess bawling my head off as I ran like I never have before. Just before being admitted we started this training routine. I'm doing Couch to 5K.  Denny does his own beautiful thing.  Kayla actually loved seeing me sweaty and I told her that I'm doing it for her. Her smile was never wider and I realized she was proud of me.  So Kayla. While you slept today, I ran for you. I poured sweat for YOU and prayed so so hard that you would feel it. That you would feel all of the love out there in the world for you and fight this like you never have... and you did!  I love you my tiny warrior. You really are my hero.


10 comments:

  1. The entire Dehnert family are an inspiration to me. So much love and fierce warrior attitude. Let's kick some cancer booty.
    Jen

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  2. Atta girl, Kayla. Sleep is such a blessing, isn't it? Sending loads of love and positive thoughts for all of that medication to do its job. I pray that it's not a horribly horrific time for her. Hopefully it's over quickly! Now that she knows what to expect, I wonder if the time is shorter or longer for her? I have been working hard with my physical therapy, but I'm even more encouraged and inspired by you, Annie, and dear Kayla. I will be working hard this week in the gym and thinking of you all as I do it! And, if there are bracelets left after the 5K to sell, please let me know - I'd love to buy one! Wish I could participate in and be at the 5K. Hope you're feeling loads of love from others and comfort from our wonderful God! Love, Chelsea

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  3. Inspiring! Are you following any particular couch to 5K program or just running a little more every day? Good luck! I know you can do it! xo Allie

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  4. Sending my love and healing thoughts. Cate xx

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  5. Run Annie. Run like the wind. Sweat, cry, laugh and run. Your mind and body will love you for it. Run for yourself, run for your daughter, run for your husband and son. I can not think of a better medicine for you through all of this. Of course you can do it - you, too, are a warrior and every warrior needs her medicine. Be well and stay strong. -Rachael Hubbs

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  6. Kayla is my hero too! And all of the Dehnert family. You have all been so strong and continue to be. We have been following your blog and and pray for you each day through this battle. You can beat it! Kick it's booty! Stay strong...fight, fight, fight!! You are missed and thought of each and everyday here in Novato. Best to you all and can't wait to see you come home! xoxo Roddy, Jill, Bella, and Violet

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  7. I follow your blog every day and pass it along to other Novatoans. Though we have never met your family, we are touched and inspired. Know that our thoughts and prayers are sent on a daily basis from those that only know you through this vehicle. We look forward to the day when we see your beautiful, healthy family, about town on a normal, regular, day...maybe at Tommy Salsa's or at Target, and we can say "hey, I *think* that's the Dehnert Family, Wow, everybody looks great". Until that day, know that you are cared for by an army of people.

    I was a sometime donor to St. Jude's, but have become a confirmed lifelong donor to St. Jude's based on all that I have seen through your site. God Bless one and all.

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  8. Oh my goodness needed some motivation, dieting after 40 does not work, so okay Kayla, I am going to figure out how to exercise with your mom, in spirit! My kids say my belly is too big...their honesty is precious...so let's all sweat and get messy, this is war after all, let's win togther, thinking of all of you tonight! Barbara Byers

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  9. Kayla and your family are definitely in inspiration to me, and I never thought a year ago or ever in my life that I would be running in a 5k for someone I love and have never met, but I will be there, and I'm going to do it on Saturday for all of you especially for your brave beautiful warrior Kayla! Stay strong sweet girl!

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  10. Hooray for the last round! Hooray for the medicine we hate, love, hate! Hooray for St. Judes and the amazing job they do in monitoring all of sweet Kayla! Hooray for an empty plaque, because it means it is almost time to come home! I have said it before, but will repeat..You are all amazing. You had a choice, you so had a choice and you chose to pull together. You chose to somehow find joy in this journey. You let us see that it has sometimes been so very scary and painful, and then we watched you get up and find whatever good you could. You chose to support those around you, when it would have been so very easy to be swallowed up in your own situation and fears. You chose to fight with courage and grace. Hooray for the Dehnerts...who ALL are warriors! We are honored to run for you on Saturday. You fight the good fight, we've got your backs!

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